I have been reading Crystal's Biblical Womanhood Blog this morning. I found her series on time management and it really struck a cord with me.
I can't get anything done because of all that I need to do. Johnny and I have made some changes in our home this week. We are getting on a schedule. You see that WE, not me. Which means that it is more likely to work that when just me tries it.
I know everything that I talk about always goes back to the year we have had. I know you all probably get tired of hearing it but this year is what is changing this family.
I am tired. I do not want to do anything. I just want to sit and do something that does not require me to use my brain or back. Call that lazy, I don't know. My husband is a truck driver and for as long as we have been together I have taken care of everything. He made the moneyand mowed the grass when time allowed. Everything else was up to me. This past year on top of all that, we moved and he was diagnosed with cancer. So I took care of everthing else, him and worked parttime. I did it because God was my strength. Sadly I did not put time for prayer and bible reading in my schedule as I should have. Now I am at a point of emptiness. I need to be filled and my family needs to learn how to do things for themselves. Oh My did I say that?
I admit I am a control freak. There I said it. I am losing that. I don't want to control right now as much as I want to be controlled. Someone needs to tell mewhat to do or it won't get done. After weeks of telling my DH that I am struggling and need help he is finally coming out of his shell. He needs to lead this family as God's word says he should. I am so thankful to reach this point. I have to say we started this this and we have been fought all week. We are all three fighting some sort of illness, Ross had a huge nose bleed, other things have been happening to distract from what we are trying to do. We are going to make it though.
I go through all this to say we are going to have to cut things out of our schedule so that the most important stuff always get done.
I hardly ever tell people no, but I am going to have to start. Ross needs more time and attention with his school work. You see we homeschool and this last yeart has taken a toll on that too.
Our marriage is not as strong as it was. Circumstances and outside forces have really tried to destroy our family. I am slowly starting to make a recovery from this fog I am in.
We are going to make sure Ross gets schooled and this family gets back to the relationship we had with God before all the distractions.
Which means not answering or talking on the phone when I need to be working with him.
I will get up in time to have my quiet time before we start school work.
We will be having family prayer time.
We will be having family exercise time.
We will be telling others that we cannot do things that interfer with any of the above.
I will be posting more later. I need to get my thoughts more together.
Friday, February 8, 2008
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Hang in there. You are one of the strongest people I know. When this is over you will see why. I don't have a clue what it is, LOL, but you will eventually see why.
I don't know if it is the time of year but I am having attitude change too. I am burned out on the blog, the coupons, the house, etc. I decided to make some blog changes and I'll see where it goes.
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